I never wanted this type of life but this is what I've got.  My days are filled with taking care of my kids, husband, pets, house and last myself.  I have put myself last for so long I don't even know where to start.  I am over weight, out of shape, unhealthy, unorganized and depressed.  I am going in the wrong direction and I need to get on a better path.  My husband wants a divorce because we don't have enough sex and I am disconnected.  He says he will go to jail or leave the country before he pays child support again so he will probably abandon our daughter.  We also have sons from our first marriages.  My son will be devastated.  His son will have to go back to live with his grandmother.